- February 24, 2018
- Posted by: scarlett
- Category: Life Experiences
Hey guys! It’s been only a week but it feels like ages. Still, I have to admit that this week was short. February deserves a gold star, don’t you think 🤔? I mean, we have barely started the month and now it’s over…Anyway, I hope you had a great month and if you didn’t, well, come get a hug 🤗. Next month will be 😀.
So guys today, I’m going to be telling you a chapter of my story. I didn’t plan on writing this today, but I felt the urge to. I’m very sure someone needs to read this and I hope it inspires you.
I’m a pretty simple person. I’ve never really been known as the best dancer or singer or fashionista and stuffs like that. But there was one thing I genuinely cared (and still care) about and that was my studies.
I promise I’m not trying to be proud or anything, but I’ve always been the best. I mean, for most of my life, I worked towards being the best, being the smartest. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always led a balanced life and I wasn’t some kind of freak. I just really cared about that stuff, you know. My books and I, we are one. For the greater percentage of my life, I succeeded in that area.
Then, things took a u-turn. I got into University, things changed. The worst part of it all was that I didn’t know why, everything within me was still the same. I was reading more, got closer to God, i had less friends and hence more time to focus. Still, I was just dropping.
What happened last semester? 😩
Last semester was probably the saddest I’ve ever been. I tried so hard, I really did. I would read but I wouldn’t understand, I would meet a billion people to teach me the same thing and still I’d fail the test. The worst part were that others were doing so well. I wasn’t jealous, I just felt bad.
Then, I began to lose faith in myself🙍. I felt that I couldn’t do it anymore and I didn’t know what I was doing to myself. Sure, I had faith in God but I didn’t trust in the ability He gave me. I’d go to write a test or exam fully prepared but I’d panic on seeing the questions and I’d end up not doing it well or not doing it at all.🙁
Because of that, people started looking at me the same way and I became depressed😣. I went from Grace to grass without even knowing.
Results came out and I did well. God had mercy on me but still that was my worst result ever. I had disappointed everyone at home and most importantly myself😶.
The night my results came out, I looked at it for a long time and I wondered how things became so topsy turvy😖. That was when my eyes opened.
Promise to self…
From that time, I made a promise to myself, that I would never ever look down on myself again. I would always believe I can, and I would stay away from the things and people that would make me doubt myself.
I came back to school with the mentality that I could do anything, and though I’m still learning to trust myself, I have kept to that promise. I may not be the best again but I know that God has big plans for me💪. In fact, I now feel as though I’m living according to those plans. I’m learning how to embrace my other talents, how to live a purpose filled life. I’m not going to stop pushing myself, working harder. I’ve learnt to have faith in myself and I’m sure that this is the beginning of great things in my life.
Enough about me!!!
Sweethearts, you can do it! Learn to have a little faith in yourself. Don’t make the same mistake I made. I can’t help but have the feeling that someone reading this has lost all hope and is feeling useless now. Darling you are not useless, you can make it if only you believe that you can do it. Be confident about your abilities because there is actually nothing you can’t do. Be your own boss and never measure yourself using someone else’s ruler.
I’m putting together a document containing a mind exercise. It’s just a little something to help if you’re going through what I went through. so I’ll probably drop it here next week or so.😔😊
You always know how to reach me if you want to talk some more😊
p.s that’s me in the featured image in case you’ve been wondering what I look like.
Goodbye, I love you💖💖💖.